Healing Through Blooms: My Journey with Flowers and Grief

2024 was a year unlike any other.

It brought immense heartbreak as I said the saddest goodbye to my mum—my best friend, my first love, and my biggest supporter. Losing her was the hardest thing I’ve ever faced, and in the months that followed, I stepped away from many things, including my passion project: this flower business.

Flowers, which once brought me so much joy and inspiration, felt like too much to bear. The thought of creating beauty felt impossible when my heart was so heavy with grief.

My brother shared a dream he’d had about our mum the week she passed. In his dream, she handed him a single, deep, dark, velvety red rose—a vivid, striking image that felt like a message from her. It was as if she was gently guiding us from beyond, showing us her love in the most beautiful way.

That dream led me to create her send-off flowers. Using the roses my brother had dreamt of, I poured my heart into the arrangements for her funeral. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, yet it also became a moment of healing.

As I worked, I cried.

The grief felt unbearable at times. But through the process, I also felt a deep connection to her—a sense of peace and love that carried me through. Those roses became more than just flowers; they became a tribute to her life, her unconditional love to her family and the joy she brought to everyone around her.

Now, deep, velvety red roses hold a special meaning for me. They symbolise my mum’s quiet strength, and unwavering love. Her name translates to ‘joy’ in English, and every time I see those roses, I’m reminded of the happiness she brought to my life and the lessons she taught me: to find joy, even in the darkest moments.

I know I’ve been quiet on social media this year, but I needed time—to grieve, to heal, and to rediscover my love for creating.

This flower business has always been about more than blooms; it’s about sharing beauty, love, and meaning through every arrangement and pursuing what brings me joy.

I hope 2025 will be kinder.

Here’s to cherishing every flower, every moment, and every memory in the year ahead.